I moved away from the coast over winter and didn't get in much. When I came back to it a few months later (moved back to the coast) it's like I'm a beginner again. I feel so frustrated at how I've spent so much time and energy into a sport to be so bad at it and it's getting to a point where I might give up. I don't want to because I love it but I'm failing miserably.
I hesitate with drop ins all the time, I pull back. I get anxious if there are too many people in the water as I don't trust myself to fully be in control as I have a longer board again now. I was at a point where I was riding the face and turning on waves. But now I can barely make the drop, even though I used to be able to do it but now it scares me. I pull out of almost every wave due to the drop being "too big" and looking down and feeling like I can't get it right.
It just feels like there's always something wrong with the waves now, like I want to get back in some smaller waves but our spots are SO crowded that it's like 8 people on one wave...
I'm losing hope and I don't know what to do. It used to be my passion but I'm finding myself struggling and more frustrated than ever. What aren't I getting?
